Control Issues

I have control issues. I admit it. On Monday I was whining and feeling down because a couple of my friends who had the same due date as me already had their babies. I am feeling left out and like I will NEVER have my baby. Then the week started and I was reminded of ALL that I need to get done at work before Friday and... I'm not whining for her to come anymore. I am praying she will wait until after Friday. Why?? Because I can't stand the thought of turning over control of my classroom and things at work until I am ready.

Case and point:
1. I could have (probably should have) stopped working at Spring Break, but I HAD to come back to teach my kids for 4 days. I felt that I HAD to give them a little test prep before the big state test (which isn't for 3 weeks still). In fact, this week I am trying to cram as much information as possible into their heads about testing. Is it going to help them? Probably not, but I Will feel better knowing I tried. Will the sub do a great job preparing them? Yes! But i just can't release control of test prep!
2. My sub is great! I have been blessed with a competent, English-degree-holding sub! But... I am getting more nervous about just walking away from my classroom now that the time has come. When you invest so much of yourself into something, it's hard to just let go and let someone else take over. So, I feel the need to over prepare my lesson plans for the rest of the year, and type out ridiculous amounts of information for her about how I grade, run my classroom, etc.
3. I have this project that I am supposed to be finished with on Friday- I have to make a presentation board of our History day group last year. I know how I want the board to look, but I really don't have time to do it. I've asked parents to help, but when they actually offer to help, I am having a hard time releasing that project to them! See, I'm a freak! I have serious control issues.

Today, I was spotting a little and it scared me- like she could come at any time. Aaron said he had the same feeling today. That worries me! I need her to wait until after Friday now! I haven't even found a diaper bag yet!

I'm sure next week when things have died down and all I have left is making hair bows, I will be ready for her to come again, but not today, not tomorrow, and not Friday!